so many incidents happened in south africa.
lesson learnt..knowing tt i cant trust everyone ard me...
maybe they are all lies and ppl tryin to portray a perfect image for others to see..
even at the expense of others feeling..
been trying hard to not doubt certain things in life..
but there are so many things tt are not within your control
yuo cant trust even the closest person to you.
eventually the person might just hurt you
im struggling to get out of doubt
stuggling so hard tt i wanna stalk..
but cindy's right... i need to trust her..
but somehow i feel we are going on a downside of our relationship..
im getting insignificant in her life..
she gave me the impression tt she can dun see me at all...and will not miss a bit of me..
but every single day im thinkin of her missing her...
maybe i've grab it too tight..
i shd learn to let loose , so eventually one day even if she choose to leave or love someone else, i can be cushioned from it..
now i know its so hard..
now know it hurts so much..
next week she'll be away from hm... to work..
i dunno if we gonna drift further and she gonna drift nearer to others..
trying to be strong, trying to be positive..cos i can;t feel tt you love me..
am i just like anyone else? a lier too?
constantly lieing to myself ...
im trying.real hard this time..
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