F.E.E.L.I.N.G

i hate the feeling..
so much...
y do i have to fee insecure?
i really wish she does not exist

hate being a piseces actually
so damm freaky emotional
so damm insecure
so damm attn seeker

y does she not even msg me?
all i can think is tt they are totally enjoying themselves..

i such a good actor..
can always hide my feelings well
doesnt even know im sad, i teared..

just love you too much to let you go..rather hide it and be sad myself..and let u be happy..

is this really love?
is this really wat i want for the rest of my life?
to fear?to be insecure and be in the mercy of tt women?

smetimes i really hate you ...for making me love you so much tt i cant do without..
sometimes i just love you too much to be willing to suffer in silence...

i MUST BE INDEPENDENT AGAIN...in case you gonna abandon me once again...

its hurting again...